I've got issues with blogging

I'm back! after my last post in umm..6 months? What moved my blogging reflects after such a long break? I dunno, maybe cuz i'm sitting in the office at 12.00am with not much to do but reflect on the day/week/month. Even then, i'm having trouble thinking what to write for my ONE loyal reader ;)

I'm not exactly the type who'd blog shamelessly about myself, how I feel, what I ate, who I met, etc..you know the typical day in life story you read on other blogs. Honestly I do find that annoying and rather self centered which explains the inconsistency with my blogging. Even twitting! A 140 character limit micro blog, I find it hard to express some things I want to say. WHY? is it really cuz there really is nothing to say, or is jus cuz I'm afraid that whatever I say will be judged by others? Like how I JUDGED them for being self centered. As I began to dig deeper, I come to the realization that blogs or other social media network i.e. twitter, FB and such is just another outlet for ppl to share their opinions on any particular subject/news even as an avenue to express themselves in the ways they find most comfortable with. So why should sharing their piece of news be seen as self centered? I mean, if it does irritate one that much, there is the option of IGNORING IT.

Perhaps this is where my writer's block or twitting block developed. The fear of what others would think of me and my opinions. It has become so bad that I would read my twits over and over again just to be sure that i don't sound too stupid, too cocky, too expressive, too self-centered, too much of everything. And by then end of it, I will either delete or jus reply to other followers' twit. Let's not even mention blogging..just take a look at the number of post i have here, clearly you can see how insecure I am when it comes to that.

So is there a solution to this? Can I pluck up the courage to blog or twit whatever I want, disregarding what others will think of me? NO! I dun think so. Not in the near future. And having said all this, I think this posting is damn boring!

Our new colleague

Her name is Nicole. Unfortunately not another Mel.. boohoo. Will tell you more when we get to know her better.